Can't title this for some reason! Blllllllllllleck!

Well, tonight I was going to go play poker...but the comfort of my couch and the boob tube was a little too alluring. Even though I only have Friday and Saturday night to play--I'm choosing to stay in. I actually made dinner for myself...something that doesn't happen too often anymore. Cooking for one just ain't as fun as cooking for two.

I'm back to running tournaments four days a week--and on Tuesday night, I had 90 people at the second session. Fortunately, all the players that show up seem to be pretty up on the specific league rules, and are good natured---so I don't usually have to make any Tournament Director rulings.

Last night though, some idiots decided that it was okay for them to drink from other people's pitchers of beer---so I had to make an announcement that that was absolutely rude behaviour and would not be tolerated.

Tonight, I read April's "This Is Not A Poker Blog", and she gave me some food for thought. She had named her blog appropriately and she didn't want her blog to be all about poker--but about herself. And that made me reflect upon my original inspirations for starting this blog. I had originally wanted this blog to be about my experiences at the poker tables, and the similarities to the game, and my life. Somewhere along the way, I started censoring what I wanted to write, and when things in my life started going downhill, I chose to go silent, and quit doing the one thing that seems to bring me joy anymore.

Don't get me wrong...I've got great friends, a good job and a home that I love---but I'm not fulfilled--except when I am around poker--whether I am playing or running a tournament. I'm just not sure where my passion for poker is going to take me. I wonder if I should start a serious blog about poker (inspired by Tao of Poker) 'cause maybe my readership and popularity would increase. Or maybe just by being myself, and being honest about my life, and the poker games is enough. I think it would be fantastic to blog live events, and travel the poker tournament circuit, and I know that I would definitely have to change my writing style.

So right now, I have a choice...leave the comfort of my home or go out at 10pm to play in a freeroll. I guess it's a easy choice...if I stay in tonight, then tomorrow I can play in 4 tournaments in one day--that will be good for building mental stamina. Maybe I'll play online instead.